Each Saturday brings another week since we lost the girls. Every Saturday I think it's been blank weeks, then take stock of my feelings, sometimes have a good cry.
Every Monday I think I should be blank weeks along. Tomorrow I should be 34 weeks along. The nursery would be already for two little girls. We'd be expecting them anytime. We wouldn't be planning trips or going away places, we'd be at home waiting for them to arrive and for our lives to be forever changed.
Instead we are moving forward. Going places, doing things, planning to have our next little one. Waiting on our happy ending, our rainbow baby.
No word on the job front. I just keep pinning lessons, classroom ideas, etc. I hope I find out sooner rather than later as I want to stop worrying. I want to be happy and it's hard to be happy without financial security.
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